christmas and the meaning for some...

well well well....this christmas was great i got my first ring from a boyfriend...and its a beautiful one i might add...diamond ring set in gold.....NICE.....i also got a jacket and baskets of body stuff, hat, mitts, money....you know the usual stuff....but the best part was the gifts i gave out...wow me and chris spent soooooooo much money on gifts its not even fit......the least we spent on one of the ppl we had to buy for was $60...not that that is much but we had 2 kids 5 adults 2 friends and each other.....i got him a digital camera a dust buster for the car, clothes, oh we both got a cordless phone that works in the back of town..its that good....with a speakerphone base for it...we won it on ebay for 40 bux and they sell in stores for 200...super deal....i love ebay...but anyways....its over now and its hard to say it was good cause it was so fast...christmas isnt a very good time for my mother on the other hand.....she recently lost her mother and a few years back she lost a fiance...she found him in the bathroom (purple) on the floor from taking a heart-attack after a shower while she was taking a nap on the couch...can you imagine hearing the water running and running in the bathroom and when you hollar to your man he doesnt answer....can you just take a minute to think of how long of a walk down the hallway to get to the bathroom would take....TERRIFYING.....thats all i can think of.....i take so many things for grantit and i wish i didnt but its easy to say i will never do that again....becasue it happens....everyday....we are all human and cant expect anyone especially ourselves to be perfect......i just wish i could turn back the clocks for just a few things...oh what i would change.....take my off and on boyfriend of about 4 years...i met him on halloween night and from that minute on my life would change...i went through alot with that guy.....cop and ambulance calls......the fights with mine and his parents.....we should have never went out....he got someone else preggo while seeing me....not to mention he conceived with her while in the midst of her taking him to court for booting her in the face......YUCK.....but people say its easier said then done when it comes to leaving an abusive boyfriend...and i was alwasy like yeah right id just get up and leave....but they are right its hard and it takes alot of power out of someone to leave someone with a problem that you think you are helping them come over.....and not to mention you think its your fault....but once you get out of the situation for a while and look back...you realise the only thing you are responsible for is not leaving.....hitting should never be a part of a relationship no matter how rough it gets........but it happens to alot of girls and the only advise i have for those that it is happening to is...someday it will be over....but not until you leave.....THEY NEVER CHANGE....NEVER......